New Year
2026-01-07
Welcome in the new year, I guess.
2025 was a very special year, in terms of what happened,
and for me 2026 isn't looking any brighter.
At least now I know what was and is happening with me. And I'm slowly learning to cope with that.
With the new year starting I got my autism diagnosis! I kind of don't know how to feel about it. I feel relived because I now know what is going on. Why I have problems with overstimulation and sensory issues, why I can't really socialize well, and so on. But at the same time I don't want to be perceived like a kid. Not by my family (which is really understanding), but mostly by my peers. I might be a little insecure if you look at it. But I'm trying to change that, have more confidence in myself and stuff, you could say it's a new year resolution. I feel weird knowing that I am autistic. Everything that I couldn't explain before now has a reason. I could go on and on explaining that, but let me keep that to myself this time.
Anyways, I don't have any new year resolutions. Except the goal to survive.
Most of the things I plan to do in the new year don't fit into the "resolutions" tab.
Like I have a plan to overhaul this page, it will probably look TOTALLY different than it is now.
But right now I don't have time nor inspiration to fuel on, so that needs to stay as it is for a while.
I might also migrate it somewhere else, probably Nekoweb, as it allows me to do more than here.
I'll leave this page though, even for archive purposes. So I kind of feel that it is the last blog post here...
Also lately I've been thinking really hard about my ongoing project-game "When the Stars Switch".
It currently looks like this:
Some of you that have played OMORI (which I personally didn't (yet!)) might recognize the
character shape to be similar of that game's. Yeah to be honest I took a lot of inspiration.
That might change though, we shall see.
Back to the topic, if you want to check out the partially-finished
game development document, it's here!.
I wonder how many people will see that link, hmmm. But should I care?
Anyways, I wrote that thing on a creative "high" like two months ago, so inconsistencies or
just plain out garbage might be there, read with caution lol.
Another project of mine - the ESP32 thing - didn't go really well. I had a vision it might look like a Flipper Zero and function the same way, but oh boy I was wrong. I don't have such low-level skills to make it simulate keyboard presses, let alone do anything with USB. I might just be dumb, maybe that's the case lmfao. I put that project on hold for now.
I feel like I do not fit the norm of Neocities pages. I just try to keep everything neat and tidy, that means also what I type here. I was thinking about going more less-formal, but to be honest, I just can't. It just happens to me naturally, maybe that's the way I'm built.
Enough of me rambling today, have a nice 2026 and see you soon (maybe?).
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